Welcome to my personal space, where I share what I’m learning from my energetic teachers in this series of Morning Sessions. Their teachings include a direct transmission, as well as visual, empathic, and telekinetic impressions of what I am receiving. The transcript has been mildly edited for easier reading.
NOTE: In this Saturday morning session, I was processing out the enormously powerful jolts of energy that landed into my light body yesterday morning. My husband Mark and I hosted a meditation in honor of our friend L. During the meditation, we all received wonderful messages and impressions. Afterward, some of us gravitated out onto the deck. Almost immediately, I felt a very intense and overwhelming energy. At first, I resisted, but then, when I realized that our friend L. was attempting to communicate with a dear one standing next to me, I turned and faced her. I told her L. wanted to convey a message. I asked if she wanted to receive. She said, “Yes.” My inner core was shaking as the message was being delivered. It was short and to the point. Then we all went inside.
I sensed that L. was trying to reverse engineer her way back into the physical plane to communicate with particular dear ones, and my body felt like a tsunami of energy was crushing it. We returned to the kitchen to share a meal at the dining table. It was lovely to visit with one another.
After only a few of us were left, I started feeling an even more intense energy pushing down my spine. It seemed to be triggered when certain people spoke, so much so, that it arched my body forward in a strong jerking motion. This has happened in the past, so I was not concerned. What did concern me was that when the jolts shot through my body, I was afraid I would pass out, and hit my head as I dropped to the floor.
Then I mentioned that I felt I needed to move over to the couch in case I did fall. I also had a powerful, intuitive sense that L. was attempting to get through to D. We agreed to move over to the couch and see what would unfold, if anything.
As it was, as soon as we sat side by side, and I reached out to hold D’s hand, I relaxed into the surge of energy. Sure enough. It was L. As soon as I could grasp the flow of her subtle body language, I surrendered to the stream of consciousness. At some point, I looked over at Mark, and he was out. He was so out that it was weird to see the timing of such a thing. She was able to receive her message in privacy.
I used to channel higher consciousness as a pass-through, as described above but found it was too harsh on my body. I sensed that L., in her attempt to communicate, had not yet calibrated her non-physical state to my meager body. The last time a soul of such strength came through this way, the Elohim served as a buffer to soften the harshness. Then on this morning, there was the energy of the whale. Who knew?
CAROL: I was just energetically asking what that big, huge spike of energy was that I was experiencing at the table yesterday. It was so strong. I felt it was—as I described it, like I was on that edge, being aware that I was going to lose consciousness, or afraid or concerned I was going to lose consciousness, and I didn't want to be sitting on a chair while I fell over.
MARK: That's pretty intense.
CAROL: It was. It was kind of edgy too. Is that really what's happening, or is that something that I’m just not able to manage the energy, or something else? I needed to allow whatever was there to connect with me and let it find its expression. It became very obvious that there was a message for D. Now, who exactly was that? I mean, it felt so much like it was L., but the energy, the initial energy, is what I was questioning.
MARK: When you were talking with D, I assumed it was L. But you're saying it definitely...
CAROL: No, I'm agreeing. I'm saying it felt like it was L., but sitting on the couch there, I allowed for the greater connection. But at the table, I was wondering, "Is this L.?" because the energy didn't have a presence about it. It was just pure, very intense.
MARK: Maybe that's what L. turned into—pure intensity.
CAROL: I mean, pure, intense energy. Absolutely. And in that way, my reaction was physical, a physical reaction to the incoming energy.
They're calling me a reluctant leader. I'm still getting different images of L., and she's saying, “in the higher realms, there are many colors and they're beautiful. People, beings—just many colors. There are many energies, many beings, and they're all very beautiful. It's only on Earth, in these separated, polarized ways of viewing the world through the eyes of separation, that tones or colors mean something, have an emotional charge.”
She is telling me, "Don't take myself so seriously. Don't think of myself as..." I'm hearing her say, "You're beautiful."
She's saying, "Don't put so much emphasis on the outer—the outer covering facing out. It's the inner, the inner essence, the inner beauty."
[When I walked through the store yesterday] That was the example of the men as I would walk by, smiling at me, saying Hi. It was the inner energy, the glow of whatever was happening. I had just come out of session, too and went straight from being in session to get my errands done.
She's saying that “the colors—some of the beings are just so beautiful. Everything is so beautiful.”
I see her in a starry night sky; there are multicolored lights, stars everywhere. Those are the souls, all the souls that have come from their earthbound experiences and other planetary systems that are there as part of God's kingdom. She's saying that she's aware that her daughter is struggling with her passing, and she's strong and she'll get through it. She'll be stronger for it. I didn't realize they talked every day, but I remember L. saying that she and her daughter spoke almost every day.
MARK: Wow. That's a big deal.
CAROL: It is a big deal.
A whale is transfiguring me.