Good morning. Today is January 15th, and it’s so good to be in 2026. It seems like it’s going to be an incredibly positive year. So what you’re about to listen to is the second day of processing out from our late October-November retreat. In this instance, I’m focusing on what I’m receiving or feeling in my own system being flushed up from all that incredibly beautiful work we did together.
I do find that when we are in retreat together, it’s so amazing in terms of the oneness and the intensity of the light that comes in. Of course, in the aftermath, the body, mind, and consciousness always need to be cleared. So this is what is clearing within me, as you’ll hear. And it’s really something like a low-grade sadness in my body that I have felt pretty much all my life. And so I was just incredibly thankful that it came up and that I was really explained that I had been carrying ancestral energy within me all this time. So what a blessing to be able to clear this energy for the entire lineage and also pop out of it myself. So thank you again for going along on this journey with me. And now, the November 6th morning session.
Morning Session: November 6, 2025 / Posted January 15, 2026
CAROL: First morning session in November. And I love, absolutely love, looking out my new big bedroom window with the sun streaming in. I have to admit, I love the colors of fall. The apple green of spring is deliriously beautiful, and the fall colors are spectacular. I was just telling Mark last night, coming off such a beautiful, beautiful, expansive weekend with everyone—I could feel a sense of neutrality. Positive neutrality. And yet it’s like a car idling. You haven’t put the gas on, and yet you’re going 90 miles an hour. And I’m really speaking about the internal cosmology, the internal feeling inside of me and recognizing that as incredibly light-filled.
I have been focusing all my life, from a very young child, on this incredible inner glow of light and seeing the beings of light around me, inside of me.
Being human, I have felt a measure of sadness, I think, is the only way I can describe it. And yet I’m not a sad person at all. I feel like I’m a very happy person, very much a person who has a lot of inner peace. And yet there it is. I noticed it.
And of course, right before we went to the retreat, Mark and I had a conversation about anger—experiencing his perpetual anger resistance toward certain things, people, places, and me. His anger, his judgment, of course, make sense because I’m the closest person to him. And yet as I brought this up, he said the same about me, that he had been noticing that I had been projecting anger toward him.
That was a curious conversation. And of course, that happened right before we went into retreat, during the drive down to North Carolina. That [conversation] began a process for me of staying neutral, positive, no matter what was happening. And I would have been in that space anyway because of holding sacred space for these beautiful souls coming to join us. Yet what I found very interesting is that, as I stayed in my witness mode and remained very discerning of my own internal action-reactions where this topic is concerned, I found myself really focusing on language. Language coupled with attitude.
So language is the result of attitude, and we can say anything. We can be expressing deep love and kindness, and yet if we have a chip on our shoulders or have any kind of internal anger program, it sounds like you are psychically attacking the other. And so, throughout the experience, I stayed neutral and positive, no matter what was happening, and just was in it. I was in the weekend. I was in the flow of the weekend, and I noticed within myself this feeling of—let go, of impending demise. Sadness. Life. Life creation, life cycle coming to a close. End of an era, end of a phase. It was certainly intermingled with all the incredible things happening in the room and on the premises of this beautiful retreat center. So I’m still sitting with that.
I’m still watching. I’m still staying neutral. I am finding that, with all that happened, I recognize the triggers in me, and they harken back to earlier times and relationship dynamics. And that was very curious to me in that I had no idea—wasn’t thinking about it—the reaction that I would have to certain things. And, of course, I am a channel, and I work with people every day. So it’s so interesting that I would not be paying such great attention to myself, to my own internal processes, because I suppose I have been so focused on what spirit is having me say or do and discerning how I’m to set a room up, or what I’m to say, or how I’m to present information that’s being shown to me, that it put me back in the, I’m going to say, the internal driver’s seat to discern my own awareness of what’s happening inside of me.
And I’m feeling like I’m on to something. And I appreciate everything that’s happening in the present moment. And even as I say this, I can still feel the—it’s like a melancholy. It’s very subtle. I would say that it’s, maybe someone would pick it up, and maybe they wouldn’t. But for me, it’s a very subtle kind of feeling. And I always thought maybe I had learned it or picked it up from my parents, one parent or the other. One parent was perpetually angry underneath all that beautiful lightheartedness, and the other one had a bit of melancholy, which would have been my father, around all of that stoicism and being in life in a good way.
So, spirit guides, I call upon you to show me, to teach me, to help me to better understand what this is and how I am to transform this energy, this frequency, this stance in life as a human, so that I can set my heart free, fully and completely.
GUIDES: They’re saying: “Yes, you have come far. You have come far, my daughter. You have come far into the relationship dynamics of your heart of hearts. You are not to despair. You are to rejoice. You are to be clear. You are to understand in your own awareness of your life and living that all is quite well.”
CAROL: I feel very emotional right now.
GUIDES: “You are to understand that as you are creating and as you are growing, and as you are fully orchestrating the changes that shall come your way, that we shall be here with you. You shall not despair. There is nothing to despair over. Your life is not coming to a close. Your children are just fine. Your beloved husband, man-child that he is, is in his sense of joyousness and playfulness. Your friend who is waiting on the other side of the ocean is excited to see you. We say that as you are recognizing and as you are creating and as you are growing, is to know that all is quite well. You see?”
CAROL: Oh gosh, they’re showing me my paternal great-grandmother. I believe her last name was either Combs or Fields, and she was a very tall, slender lady, six feet one inch. And I met her for the very first time when my parents took us all back to Kentucky, and my father stopped the car alongside a little white house, which I went back and saw just a few years ago, and we walked into the very, very small living room where she was sitting. And she was dressed in a little white dress, a white-collared dress, a printed dress, with her black support shoes. Very regal-looking, actually. And my father picked me up [I was about 3 years old], put me on her lap, and said, “This, this one looks just like you.” And of course, as I found out later, much later, this was the great-great-grandmother who had many boys. This was my father’s father’s mother. And she had these boys.
Her husband had passed, and so in order for her to survive, two years after the fact, she remarried a prominent person. He was fairly wealthy. He was an attorney in town. And in the deal, though, he didn’t want two or three of the boys. He only allowed her to keep the little girl, who was a baby at the time. And so the boys went to the local orphanage.
Come to find out, she would go and visit them every week. But by the time the kids were like 12, my father’s father ran away, never to return. And so those boys ended up having very, very hard lives. And the mother went on to have another couple of children, and that branch of the family ended up being very stable and did well in life. So it was a tale of two—one river splitting into tributaries.
It’s interesting to me because one of my siblings, when the great-grandmother has come up in conversation, has been incredibly harsh in her judgment of this woman. And of course, I look at it as what a horrible, horrible dilemma that you have to make in that time frame of the Great Depression and so forth, to have to split your family apart in order to survive. So in my view, she did what she had to do.
But I feel like that energy—when I think of how I began to feel, that sort of wave carrier that I carry forward—it’s almost as if it’s a part of that energy. It’s like a hum. A hum of almost like whatever you do, there’s no positive outcome. It’s like a choice of negatives instead of a choice of positives. And that is the energy I most certainly wish to clear this morning, that energy of mass consciousness.
GUIDES: “Ah, yes. Yes, yes, my daughter, we understand. We see, we know, we help you. But you must do this yourself. You must understand that you are not that. You are the benefactor of such struggle. Yes, this is quite true. But you are not that. You are a being of light, embodied. You have come here to clear these frequencies, not to wallow in them, not to immerse yourself in them. You shall be free. You shall understand that your freedom, your sense of freedom, is the way forward. And you are also grieving the loss of your beloved loved one. This we know: you are yet to let go and let the forces of light, if you will, take over to embellish, to honor, to infuse your loved one with great light. We say that as you are recognizing and as you are creating, know that all is quite well, you see”
CAROL: This is true. I have personal responsibility, love, and honor. And I set the intention that this energy be cleared from my system and transmuted into a higher waveform of love and compassion. Compassion for myself and others.
Carol serves as a seer. empathic intuitive, and guide. She shares God’s love and grace to help others transform. www.carolfitzpatrick.com Global mission: Sustainable Oneness Spiritual Alliance and the Centers for Planetary Awakening: www.sustainableoneness.org/
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